Who am I?

I have no future. It's pretty much settled. 


In a panic that I absolutely MUST do something productive with my summer, I began scouring the internet for internships last night. At some point in my world wide wanderings (at some unreasonable hour of night) I stumbled across this site and readily made myself a profile. Then I noticed a quiz! A "what's your best internship?" quiz! I love quizzes and couldn't wait for the internet to tell me exactly what I'm going to do when I grow up. The internet is basically omniscient and omnipotent anyway, so it couldn't possibly lead me astray, right? Right?

NOT FOR ME

I began the quiz, thinking my responses seemed to target me as a pretty creative, literary, humanities-type person. I figured that it would tell me to be a teacher, because I've heard that a million times before. I was expecting kindergarten teacher, I was expecting lawer, I was expecting library sciences. I was not expecting what I received. According to the future-savvy internet, I enjoy:

• Higher education
• Research
• Medicine
• Science
• Computer industries
• Engineering/design fields

Higher education, check. But that's about where it ends. I'm really rather baffled as to what buttons I clicked that would indicate I'm a science person. Strange... But there's more. According to these results, I would apparently enjoy internships in:

• Computer software design/development
• Venture capital
• Legal mediation
• Financial analysis
• Economics
• Music
• Intellectual property
• Web site design
• Investigation
• Strategic planning
• Pharmacy
• Network integration

Something is not right here.

FALSE. Seriously, all of this. I like good paper, nice pens, and musty books. I write stories, not lines of computer code. I must have received someone else's future results, but these certainly not pertain to me. I like creative ideas and allusions and literary form. I like spending hours debating morality, politics, and literary analysis. 

Pharmacy? Where on earth does that fit in? I am not a science major and I am not pre-med. For everyone's sake, let's give that internship to someone who's a bit better versed in biology and chemistry than I am.

Finances? I could hold a fairly well versed conversation about world trade, economics and currencies, but that's because I read the newspaper everyday, not because I play the stock market like a businessman. 

Overall response to this internship quiz: Either I have no future ahead of me or I really really don't come across as a humanities person. Either way, I need to get it together. Okay, it's GO-TIME. Time to get some sort of focus and stop misleading the intertubes so that they can help me get all rich and famous and YEAH actually make something out of my life. 

Oh, but that's right. I'm only a sophomore. A confused student with a hazy, hazy future ahead of me.

MOTHER OF PEARL, I need to get it together.

Finals/Internet Broken Heart

WHY AM I NOT DONE WITH FINALS YET? One more project. Due Tuesday. I'm living in the dining hall again. It's no wonder finals are making me fat. I can't even justifiably blame it on the stress; it's a personal self-control fail.

But onto even more frustrating problems. Why, why, why can't my netbook seem to keep a stable internet connection in the dining hall? Granted, the internet isn't really vital to my project, but I would love to be able to listen to music online without it skipping and stopping every couple of minutes. Then I have to disconnect from the internet and reconnect. I don't get it. This does not happen on anyone else's computer. This does not happen with my laptop. Is my netbook just too small and frail to keep a stable connection? Instable internet makes me a sad panda. How am I supposed to procrastinate without my facebook and gmail? Oh wait, I spend more time DISCONNECTING AND RECONNECTING to the internet. Talk about a totally unfulfilling procrastination. 

I cannot take these blocks of silence. All I want is a continuous stream of music please. That's it. I won't even procrastinate (as much) if I could just listen to my music like a normal human being. This is actually beyond frustrating. Lightyears beyond frustrating. Stupid netbook. Stupid internet. Stupid dining hall. Stupid project. 

Also, I am in love LOVE love with the song "Stereo Love" and every time it skips on me, my heart breaks a little bit. Seriously. In fact, I'm listening to it right now. And it makes me want to dance and be productive and take a vacation all at once. That's conflicting. I want it on repeat. I'm in (stereo) love.

Want. Want so much.

The music video is also amazing. Here are some reasons why I can't stop watching it:

• Attractive male 
• Epic walking
• Beautiful Grecian (I think) beaches and white houses
• Epic stair-climbing

Where's my attractive male that I can walk (epicly) on Grecian islands with? I want one.

Other songs that I've been listening to on repeat for the past couple of days:

1. Kids - MGMT
2. Marry You - Bruno Mars (credit: Julian)
3. F*ck You - Cee Lo Green
4. Grenade - Bruno Mars 
5. Magic - B.o.B
6. Please Don't Go - Mike Posner (credit: Julian)
7. Memories - David Guetta
8. 2012 - Jay Sean
9. Animal - Neon Trees
10. Right Above It - Lil Wayne (credit: Jordan)

Power playlist right there.